Today is the day I stand up to my bully, ME.

Every day I tear down myself esteem when I step on the scale and look in the mirror.  I make myself feel like less of a person because I've gained more weight and my clothes no longer fit.  I tell myself that I’m a horrible role model for my children.  I tell myself I’m a failure because I never stick with an exercise or eating plan for more than a few days.  I tell myself I am powerless and that because I failed to prevent the weight gain, I am doomed and will be forever unhappy.

Every day I tell myself reasons why I can’t or won't be successful:

·         You can’t afford a gym membership and even when you do have one, you don’t go.

·         Why did you even bother joining a gym in the first place?  Two years ago when you changed jobs, you knew this would be the outcome and you still gained weight.

·         Your attention span and commitment is pathetic.  How is that drinking more water thing going?  Oh yeah, it lasted a week, maybe.  Oh and how about that meal tracking log?  That last 3 days, tops.

·         You have asthma and use it like a crutch.  Poor baby, it’s too cold and you can’t breathe.

What hurts the most is I believe that there must be some truth to these statements because they’re coming from me.  Who knows my faults better than I do?  Why would I lie to myself?

The answer is simple, because I always have.  I can't remember a time when I didn't criticize something about myself.   But no more!  Today is the day I stand up to my bully and demand that I be nicer to myself.  

And what is so special about today?  Absolutely nothing, except that today is the day I chose to stand up to my inner bully.